Believing God

I started doing this Bible study about 4 weeks ago and have loved it. I did a Beth Moore Bible study in college (Breaking Free) and another one on my own (Esther) a few months back. I would recommend them to anyone, even if you don’t have a church group to do them with. You learn so much about God, the Word and yourself. Each study I have done has impacted my life in a very memorable way.

I started Believing God when I was the midst of a infertility struggle. David and I had been trying for months, I had received a diagnosis of PCOS and none of the meds were working. During August, I struggled with a lot of anger and depression.  I had been bottling up all my doubts and fears and  hadn’t been pouring out my heart to God. One day, I kind of hit rock bottom and went in my closet to cry. I started listening to one of my favorite worship songs over and over and over and over again. As I poured out my feelings to the Lord, hope began to rise in my soul and I felt better. Nothing in my situation had changed but I had peace from the Lord. Shortly after that day, I started the Bible Study and it challenged me to have faith and BELIEVE God for what I have asked.

I had a friend who once had the faith to pray for someone to raise from the dead (here in America). I asked him how it was so easy for him to do this. He told me that all that God requires of us is to have faith and if that is what God asks, then that is what he was going to do. In every circumstance that presented an opportunity for faith, He would just believe God enough to ask Him for the things that He says He can do. When I asked him about dealing with disappointment (if the answer was no), he said that God may have just been testing his heart in that situation to see how much he did believe before giving him another opportunity to have faith.

As I began the study, Beth Moore focused in on one of my favorite scriptures: “Abraham believed and it was credited to him as righteousness.”  The scripture once again spoke deep in my soul and I decided that I would live that verse. I would believe God no matter what. I didn’t always have to understand and it didn’t have to make sense to me but I want to be righteous before the Lord no matter what. It seems simple and it is.

Things didn’t magically get better but my heart was a peace. My heart is safe believing God. When I doubt and fear, then I feel like I am sinking in the sand. But believing and trusting my Lord, I know that I am on a solid rock.

I bought this necklace when I started the study and even though I am pregnant and did get what I believed for, I know that choosing to believe God permeates into every area of my life.

Trust Him, HE IS FAITHFUL

 

My new bling

***Update: everything that I said in this post no longer applies. It must have been the placebo effect because yesterday was the WORST day of nausea thus far and I was sporting my bracelets. Sad day…****

David didn’t get my new jewelry at the place where every kiss begins with “K-ay”

and he didn’t go to Jared’s…

but I don’t think they carry something this classy.

Walgreen’s is where my man shops for me.

And to be honest, I don’t think I would be as happy and normal feeling as I do now if they were made from diamonds instead of this nice, gray stretchy material.

I hope people won’t think I am white trash if I wear them with a dress and heels to dinner tonight.

Do you think I can pull it off?

Regardless, I don’t really care. I have not felt like throwing up for the first time in 2 month thanks to these Sea Bands.

If you are pregnant and nauseous, try them. I was a skeptic but within 5 minutes I felt a MILLION times better.

Blizzard, Day II

It’s been snowing around these parts since Tuesday night.

We had a little reprieve yesterday and THANKGOD we were able to make it to our 1st ultrasound {more on that later}

But this morning I woke to find the snow is still coming down and I cannot tell you how thankful I am that I am NOT on-call until next Monday!

The view from my front door:

Ummm Turbo, you may just have to learn how to us the toilet for the next few days…

I love it!

But I would love it MORE if I were in 3rd grade and had 2 snow days in a row like the kids in our neighborhood.

 

I have declared war

on my cravings that is.

and yes they are already that bad.

I seem to crave EVERYTHING unhealthy

and detest everything healthy…except fruit

It is turning into a real war over here and I am hoping and praying it doesn’t last the whole 9 months!

I mean the little guy/gal is tiny and but I want to eat like he/she is another 5′5″ 125 lb person.

Taco Bell–I love your chicken burritos {fresca style just to get some nutrition)

Wendy’s–I am really holding out until I have a bad day and I can order some french fries and a frosty and GO. TO. TOWN!

Pickles–lets just *pretend* that I may or may not have bought a jar at Wal-Mart one day and then proceeded to eat them in my car. Remember I said to pretend people!

Red Robin–those little devils sent me a free burger coupon on my bday and I have already used it. Those fries were almost as good as I anticipate my Wendy’s fries being…

Chipolte–oh the flavors! I am pretty sure I have eaten there at least once every week I have been pregnant. I only eat half the burrito but still—eating two halves in one week = a whole burrito. Please spare me the caloric details.

I haven’t even begun to scratch the surface of the spontaneous cravings (as I like to call them) that come on when anyone suggests a certain food. If I am watching a commercial, instantly what ever I am watching looks delicious. Talk to me about Burger King for 5 minutes and I will probably join you for a midnight run.

So I have officially declared war and am attempting to ward of any and all cravings as best my exhausted and nauseous body can. I figured that since this little bean is half David, that is the root of my problem. I detest fast food and he practically lived on it through college.

Oh why me?????  :)

Let’s Catch Up…

Since my Wonderful, Life Changing announcement last week, I have had a blogging block {if that’s what you call it}. There IS the temptation to write about all my symptoms and naps related to the little Farmer growing inside of me…however, I know that most of you would stop reading once you read “breast tenderness.”

So I have arranged a buffet of sorts for your reading and viewing pleasure…

1.) It’s SNOWING HERE!!!!!!! and, I love it! It makes me so excited for Christmas. Forget Halloween and Thanksgiving, I am ready to decorate our house. I think I am a little premature on my holiday spirit due to a couple of things 1.) last year we couldn’t decorate because our house was for sale 2.) I have so many great ideas for our new home. I am not really one to out do myself with Autumn Decorations so Christmas is my time to shine. I may just put up our tree before Thanksgiving this year. I hope my Turkey Day guests won’t mind. If they do, I will just blame it on pregnancy brain.

2.) My hubby organized our garage a few days ago {which gave him approximately 300 brownie points} and found one of his old toys.

Anyone recognize it? It’s one of the creatures from the book Where the Wild Things Are

Personally I have never read that book but the stuffed animal looks well-loved so David must have enjoyed it.

3.) David and I have started being very intentional about scheduling a date night every week and I LOVE IT! Especially since we have had conflicting schedules. A few weeks ago he planned for us to go to Color Me Mine to paint ice cream bowls {since I love Ice Cream SO MUCH!} Lets just say I wasn’t the only one with my creative juices flowing. I was very impressed with his design.

His Bowl is AWESOME!

Can you guess which kind of ice cream is my favorite?

4.) My friend Alicia bought me my first pregnancy gift–so thoughtful!

5.)  I didn’t end up running the 1/2 marathon this weekend {which was hard to swallow since I paid $80 to register} but I didn’t want to push myself to far with this little babe. However, I have still been running and hope to run throughout my pregnancy. For all of you that just gasped, take a deep breath. I  am being wise about it. I don’t run nearly as hard as before, I walk if I feel cramping or if my heart rate goes to high. I just love running so much that it is hard for me to do some other form of exercise at this point.

6.)  hmmmm, what could I say about the number 6…..Oh I know!

My Bronco’s are 6-0!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has a great day now off to catch up on your blogs.

It’s a Miracle

I am pregnant!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

For the full story about our infertility struggles, you can go here: http://barrenandbelieving.wordpress.com

To see how we announced it to family, you can go here: http://littlefarm2010.blogspot.com

3 more days till

One of my Best Friends, Jamie, bought me the tickets for my upcoming bday!

She is coming down from Colorado Springs to stay at my house and I can’t wait!!!!!!!

Anyone ever seen this musical?

Full N’ Soft for a little longer

Maybelline discontinued my MOST FAVORITE MASCARA EVER!!!!!

I will try to make you understand how much I love this mascara…

If I were sentenced to a desert island and were only allowed to bring piece of makeup, I would pick my mascara. My eyes are one of my best attributes and the mascara just makes them that much better. Without it, I simply feel naked.

If I were Raggedy Anne, it would be my Andy.

If I were David Letterman, it would be the foot in my mouth.

If I were Jeff Probst, it would be Survivor.

Catch my drift?

And would you believe that Maybelline did not consult me before making this terrible decision?!

I was at Walmart when I learned of the terrible news. I thought it was a restocking error until  saw the new display with samples of all their mascara. My Full N’ Soft was nowhere to be found. I shed a few tears and then picked myself off the floor and picked a new kind while hoping and praying that I would love it even half as much. Sadly my new mascara was not the answer to my desperate prayer.

But then I was at Target today and decided to see if they had any left over that I could buy….

Low and Behold, there were 3 left!!!!!!!!!!!!

and, Yes, I did buy them all.

Target, you just gave me one more reason to love you!

Reunited with an old friend

aI went running this morning {this cold and snowy morning} for the 1st time since I broke my poor little toe.

Who knew that each of my little piggies played such a key role in being able to run?

Lets just say I appreciate the little guys a lot more than I did before.

I think I could have started running a few days ago but it was hard to get up the energy to go. But once I did, it was like I was reunited with a long lost friend.

I love to run.

I love to sweat {TMI? sorry.}.

I love the way that it feels to accomplish a goal and know that I did something good for my body.

Endorphins truly do make me happy {name that movie}.

The only thing I am questioning is this half marathon I am supposed to run in……A WEEK!

You see before my husband broke my 3rd toe, I was training hard and feeling really good about the race. Then 1 month ago, BREAK!  And just like that I was placed on injured reserve and had to nurse myself back to health. So here we are a week away and I just ran 2 miles with a sore toe. Hmmmmm, not sure about breaking my PR. I am still considering if I should run. I would hate to waste the $70 but then I would also hate to hurt my toe or something else more. Ah, the unknown….it’s so what shall I say,  unknown.

You’re Invited!!!* {not really}–part II

My friend Jen is having her first little bundle of joy, Noah, here in a few months and I volunteered to make her baby shower invites after she liked what saw on my last You’re Invited post. {Thanks Jen!}

You must all know that Jen has a MILLION, TRILLION friends from across the United States to Singapore so I had my work cut out for me.

Sure it would have been easy to just print out something on cute little baby paper {yawn} but she already had expectations and I didn’t want to disappoint.

She sent me some pics of her nursery theme {sports} for inspiration and then I made my way over to Hobby Lobby for the supplies.

And this time I beefed up my right brain with some steroids so I would have to do as much “creative copying” as last time

Low and behold, I think the -roids worked:

I chose to put a baseball on the front of the invite because her hubby loves to play and watch baseball.

And I am sure that little Noah will too. {unless of course he is smarter than his dad and  chose to play a better sport like football… *cough* *cough*}

Jen I hope you like them and can’t wait to meet all of your friends on November 7th!